Tag Archives: The Deuce

Refuge

I’m at a point where I’m no longer taking the stress in stride. I was able to do that for a few weeks, but no more. My one refuge, the bike, no longer provides a cover from the pressures that ...

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Enter The Deuce, Part IX

I’ve been thinking about how I transitioned from foreswearing surgery to grudging consideration, to rational acknowledgement that surgery was the only reasonable option for the Deuce’s recovery. ...

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Enter The Deuce, Part VIII

Yesterday morning I joined some friends for our standard Wednesday ride, a late-rolling affair that’s as much a refuge from the normal work day as it is workout.  Most of them know the ...

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Enter the Deuce, Part VII

When I’m not at the hospital, I pine for the smell of Matthew. Newborns have a smell that is as fresh as fruit and as mammalian as a dog’s. The smell is pleasant in direct proportion to how clean ...

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Enter The Deuce: Part VI

Nature does not abide the straight line. Perfection in nature is rare and what it looks like can be surprising. Imperfections can be just as hard to recognize; often hidden by what we expect to ...

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There Will Be Chaos

There will be chaos—keep pedaling —Anonymous This is, perhaps, the wisest statement I’ve ever heard about riding in a pack. I’d love to know who first uttered those words. Who had ...

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Enter The Deuce, Part V

The text was simple enough: “Call me when u can”. I’d not have seen it for a couple more hours had I not been pulled over at the side of the road. I was four hours into what was ...

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Enter The Deuce, Part IV

Initially, doctors placed his Tininess the Deuce on a ventilator because his lung function was so marginal. Even though they used components small enough to put on a G.I. Joe, his head still ...

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Enter The Deuce, Part III

I live in a world with little certainty, but plenty of answers. The number of things I know with certainty I can count on one, maybe two hands. Beyond the love of family, my life has taught me ...

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Enter The Deuce, Part II

What we learned over following his initial day or two was that Matthew probably had a chylothorax pleural effusion, meaning fatty lymphocytes—lymphatic fluid—were draining into his chest via some ...

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