Posts by Category: Mind

Friday Group Ride #477

Friday Group Ride #477

I’m a bad night dreamer. Bizarre anxiety comedies play out from my subconscious. Some outright nightmares too. Any time a dream looks like it might be headed in a vaguely good direction, my ...

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For Veterans’ Day

For Veterans’ Day

“I study war so that my children may study peace and my grandchildren may study poetry.” —John Adams It was on a cool March morning nearly 20 years ago that I rolled into the visitors’ center of ...

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Friday Group Ride #476

Friday Group Ride #476

I am not the Velo Pied Piper, not really, although people do come to my house occasionally, with flat tires or questions or shiny new bikes to show off. I am, for some people, the bike guy, but I ...

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De Renner

De Renner

I first read Tim Krabbé’s The Rider in 2002, very shortly after it was translated into English, from the Dutch, in which it was originally published as De Renner. Before it had become a signpost ...

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Seasons

Seasons

Red leaves, taut skin in the cold air, water vapor as I exhale. It’s fall for sure. When I left we were caught between Indian Summer and fire season, which is to say, dry, warm and windy. ...

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Original Data

Original Data

A routine is a way of stilling time. It is its own spreadsheet, and in it lives progress. Listen. Every Saturday I show up and I clip in, and I do my best. Results, as they do, vary. But the ...

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Friday Group Ride #474

Friday Group Ride #474

It wasn’t the first thing she told me, which struck me as very odd, because if I had a story like that, I think it would be the first thing I said to everyone I met. Instead we exchanged  ...

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Friday Group Ride #473

Friday Group Ride #473

Words get stuck in my head. I am not sure how or why this happens. For example, I might read the word ‘sacerdotal’ in a book, and then for three or four days it echoes in my mind. ...

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Down the K-Hole

Down the K-Hole

My third and fourth Ketamine sessions didn’t produce the same mind-rending results as the first two, but that’s not to say they weren’t significant. They were just subtler in ...

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Set Point

Set Point

When I begin a Ketamine session I can feel changes throughout my body. It’s different than the effect of alcohol, but in a manner similar to alcohol, I feel it throughout my body and ...

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